Spring Thinking

I was finally granted the long awaited relaxation and separation from the routines of school.

Oh, Spring Break. How I miss you already. 

Being worn out is a state of existence I know only too well. But I've realized that my complaints seem to falter and flinch in comparison to the complaints and worries of others. My life is not as hectic as it appears, and most of my stress is a result of my own doing. It is no one's fault but mine that I waited to write three papers in one night. It is no one's fault but mine that I have no money for gas because I have no job. It is no one's fault but mine that I get upset over petty situations because I blow them out of proportion. It is no one's fault but my own that I am not accomplishing what I want to accomplish with my time.

So.

In theory, this post would be the striking of a plan to better myself. Right about now I would make a list of all the things I want to start doing {go to the gym, learn to play guitar, write more}, but what's the point? Good intentions are not the same as actions. I've drafted this list time and time again. It doesn't matter what I intend- all that matters is what I deliver. So instead of assessing what I think I should be doing, I need to assess the reasons why these things aren't happening. Because there is a pattern here... habitual behavior. A persistent nature.


Change is a funny thing.
   & I like to laugh.

we shall see.