One More Time with Feeling.

"breathing's just a rhythm"

{I've been on a Regina kick. 

She seems to soothe my insides quite nicely.}

Tonight my parents called a family meeting. They really addressed everything that had been bothering me over the past year or so. Issues regarding my brothers, my father, disproportional authority, etc. It was such a release to have everything out on the table. FINALLY. To acknowledge and purge all those repressed emotions that were bottled up and stewing. To expel how I really felt about everything. It was a cathartic experience.

Being a member of a military family has it's hardships and it can be difficult to find an outlet, to find listeners who really know what you're going through. I've had to experience stresses that no one else I know has ever come close to. It's just a very unique reality. Fully accepting it gives me a deeper sense of identity in a way. I've been inclined to ignore my "army brat" components, but it's really a HUGE chunk of who I am. We'll never fit the mold for a normal family or lifestyle, which is something I'm learning to own. I'll never know what it's like to have parents who work a 9-5 job, or what it's like to visit the house you grew up in. Everything is temporary, nothing is stationary.

But we're trying to make it work as best we can.

so yeah.