Dax Diary 5

12-20-03

Sure has been a while. The thought of the day is trying to find my "groove". And I think it's been found. I'm pretty content with what I am and who/what I like and dislike. But what I can't believe is that I used to think I was cool because a certain person was talking to me or that they were my friend. That just because I liked a certain type of music, I had to ask everyone else what they listened to and brag about it. Like everyone had to know. But I'm glad that's over. So, if anyone asks what I listen to, I don't know what to tell them because I don't listen to just one kind of music. Music is about expressing yourself. You can't feel just one feeling all the time. That's just how I feel about it. So, whatever I'm feeling at the moment is what I want to listen to. But everyone is different, so I can't say anything accurate about that. And another thing that peeves me is how people think they are above you. Like you don't matter. Ok, good for you if you have nice clothes. Not everyone has enough money to have the finer things in life. I would know. Good for you if you have more friends. Most of them probably aren't worth it. They won't be there to catch you. If you spend most of your time talking about them behind their backs, what kind of friend are you? You don't deserve any friends if you don't know what friends are for. They aren't possessions. They are companions. Good for you if you have a nice body. God made us all different. We all can't be a size 3. What kind of world would we live in if everyone looked the same? Besides the fact that you couldn't make fun of somebody for being different, it would be boring and dull. I don't get how being the size of a toothpick is attractive. What's so wrong with having some curves? And what's going on with the clothes? They're all tight and cut so your butt crack sticks out and your belly is showing. Tell me how that's comfortable. And all these tv shows about the "Fabulous Life of Britney Spears". Why do I care? AHH! I don't know what else to say... You're not better than me, or anyone. If all you do is bring other people down to make you feel better, then you're the one below everyone. 

And I don't care what you think about me because I have thoughts about people to. I know who I am and what I do so you can't talk for me.

DONE.